Dizzy Blue

It's post finals let down finally having a chance to settle in. Only this time it's compounded with post moving let down. I feel dizzy and directionless. I'm calling it emotional vertigo. I don't know where I belong in the flow of things. Which way is up?
As a result, I've been feeling down. Depressed. You know that fog that gets into you brain and makes even your own thoughts and memories dim. It's harder to do everything. Tonight I wished that I had a fun group of friends that I could just get drunk with and laugh until the clouds blow away and all that's left is a mild hangover. Unfortunately none of my friends are here in town (Portland) as far as I know. I was feeling blue and perusing facebook. Seeing all the cool things other people were doing and wallowing in the gloomy confusion of my own lack of motivation at the moment.
Then I looked at my own photos. I look really happy in so many of them. Especially our wedding photos, Andrew. Now I'm smiling. Life is good again. I have a good life. I just need to live it. We must go backpacking this summer.