Poison Oak leads to insomnia

The poison oak that I spoke of in an earlier posting was showing signs of planing to be pretty bad- blistering and such. So rather than spend the rest of spring break miserably trying not to scratch, I decided to go to the doctor and get steroids. Prednisone does wonders. I have had the good fortune to develop an allergy to poison oak only in the last few years, but now I react to it with a vengeance. Oh well. Serves me right for laughing at people all those years. The downside to prednisone is that it will keep you up. This is a great improvement to being kept awake by the itchies, but now I'm not sure what to do with my useless wakefulness.
I'm thinking that a round of steroids should make it on the first aid kit list for any backpacking trips lasting more than a few days. I wonder if a doctor would have a problem prescribing them for a problem that has not yet occurred.

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Sorrow and Love

I couldn't sleep last night. I wrote a little then went to bed and lay there in the dark listening to my thoughts mutter through my head like the annoying drip of a leaky faucet. About 3:00am the sound of me crying into my pillow woke Andrew.
He hugged me sleepy and puzzled, "shh, shh... it's okay. What's the matter?"
"I miss Carla."
I don't want her to be gone.

Back when we were just friends Andrew told me that he wanted to be there for me. He told me that if I was feeling bad I could call him. "I don't care if it's 3:00 in the morning the night before a final," he said. I could tell, he meant it, too. So now he's had the chance to show me- 3:00am the night before a final. What a guy.

Sorrow

The sadness that is life aches in my throat tonight like the seed of a sob. So I searched the word sorrow on google images. Here is what I found that spoke to me.







This particular site had a lot of stuff that I liked.
http://princess-of-shadows.deviantart.com/gallery/3925318#/dqk2se

http://www.stockvault.net/blog/photography/30-sorrow-filled-photographs/
http://www.sejlakameric.com/art/sorrow.html
http://whatislistening.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/Sorrow.jpg

The itch

I appear to have gotten poison oak on my arse during my adventures. That's the down side of peeing in the woods when you are in oak scrub-land. It's hard to find spot away from the other hiker and the poison oak at the same time. It appears that I failed. I avoided hikers, though. It's not that bad. Rabble, rabble!
The itch that is bugging me more is the one telling me to go on another adventure before my soul falls asleep again. The daylight is gone now though. I chose to stay in out of the rain today and try to focus on reviewing linear algebra. I'm not sure that was the best choice. I'm starting to pace around like a bored dog... more inclined to eat my notes than read them.

Energy

I spent the time between yesterday's writing and sunset walking. I must have gone four or five miles. I did not make it to the end of the trail system, but I got farther than I ever have. I also got lost in an attempt to take a shortcut and found that I'd doubled back. Shortcuts almost always are longer. I brought my little video camera and took video of birds and plants and cows. The battery doesn't last very long. Alas.
Today, I am both more tired and more awake than I have been in months.

Where there's a will there's a way

The challenge is simple: put on warm cloths and walk the trails at bald hill until I reach the end. Yet I lack the will to begin. In the heart of the twisted knot in my stomach lies the knowledge that I ought to be reviewing linear algebra in order to take an exam next week and salvage my academic career, but the idea makes me queezy. I lack the will to cry as well. The challenge is simple: breath. Chase away the nightmares. Decide. It is snowing and blustry. It was sunny a moment ago and it will be again if I wait five minutes. This is March.
If I sit down with a book and give up the walk, will I loath myself? I think I may.

Upon looking at this blog for the first time in nearly a year...
Andrew leans over my shoulder, "ooh, you have a follower."
Me-"yeah, that's my mom."
Thanks Mom. Glad to see you are my biggest fan.
I have a zoo now. My puppy went to live with Kate's dad where he has more space to run around. So I have two ferrets and two cats. In terms of mass they still don't match Colby Jack but in terms of the quantities of poo and mischief. They do pretty well. Also I got engaged to Andrew, got into graduate school, started it and decided that I need a break. Spring's coming in slowly.

Rhododenron

The Rhododenron is finally going to bloom! I was starting to wonder if it would this year. I'm so excited.